Adulting

Adulting is a lonely journey, some sort.

At least, to me.

And this train isn't stopping any time soon.

It's not something I didn't expect, I did, I prepared myself for it (maybe I pretended I did).

Perhaps when it hits, it really, hits.

I don't blame anyone for it though. 

Am accepting the fact it's part of life, where eventually you'd end up by yourself, 

at least until you have someone to be with 24/7 i.e. married/children.

I know for a fact that it isn't always rainbows and butterflies and balloons and flowers.

But it is still, a lonely trip, adulting.

Or perhaps I'm imagining things.
I don't know.

Been awhile anyway, isn't it?

And next post will be awhile too.

This Covid19 era sucks.
Really sucks.

Masih

Hati (masih) lagi sayang.
Rindu.

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Ticker tape, ticker tape.

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However the ball's no longer in my court.

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Dah dua, tiga malam, rasa 'sakit' / 'berat' dalam dada.
Nak menangis, dah kering air mata ni.
Buka spotify, ulang lagu I'm Easy To Find,
dengar lirik satu-satu, meresap langsung.

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I'm coping, each day, one step at a time.
Tapi sungguh, beza betul kali ni dengan yang sebelum-sebelumnya.

Losing You

Losing you has always been terrifying

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I was never ready to lose you.
Even the thought of it scares me still.
How such idea can easily bring tears to my eyes.

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I'm still not ready to lose you.
I've made you my Sun,
losing you will make my world turns dark.
I'm afraid of dark.
I've always been afraid of the dark.

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I guess,
We will never be ready.
I'll never be ready.